Fruitful avoidance behavior

In a little over an hour's worth of my time, I cranked out this cotton washcloth. Now the knitlist has had some exchanges of email debating the worthiness of this humble knitting project and there are those that sit on both sides of the fence. Now this one is my first, and I must say it was refreshing to have a beginning to end project in a short period of time, using less than a skein of cotton yarn from Walmart. It's far from being perfect as the imperfections of my knitting show up oh so well under the scrutiny of the camera lens, but, it was an hour of time where I could wile away time, not thinking too much about what I was actually doing. It was a project I could take with me to a sit and sew or stitch and bitch as it is now called, and be able to carry on a conversation. In addition, as Trilla, who encouraged me to read Mindful Knitting, stated, it makes a lovely gift with a nice bar of soap - and such a simple lovely gift it will make. Thanks Trilla.
However, the truth of the matter is that I was avoiding the Faroese SHAWL, I unknitted all last night until I got to a place where I KNEW the shawl was ok. All counts were accounted for and I could forge ahead. I proceeded through two rows , and my nervous little soul told me......count to make sure things are even.... well, after two rows, they weren't, I put the shawl down and went to bed. The thing is I don't want to go back on this and fix it, I was diligent in making sure everything was just right and now this. It's a conspiracy.. so the washcloth was my way of taking control, to KNOW I can knit, I KNOW I can complete something with out taking out more than I am knitting in. Alas, it waits for me in the basket, but I am suspicious enough to recount, I bet the numbers are different today. Wonder if they are in my favor this time......